I am officially having it. The week from HELL. Something else I'm having? A meltdown. Complete and total meltdown. Do you want to know? Probably not, but your going to hear about it anyway.
So as you know I work from home, which means the internet is my life. If I don't have the internet, I've got nothing. I have Comcast Business Class internet. So I pay more for the "good stuff". GOOD STUFF? MY ASS! All through January and February we were having issues. 3 technicians, 2 Modems, countless hours on the phone with customer service and somehow it resolved itself around the middle of February. There was no resolution, nothing. Just, it's working now. They have no idea what caused it. So I worked from the middle of Feb until Monday with no issues.
So Monday begins with me already exhausted because N had his 6 mth shots on Thursday and wasn't sleeping well. Monday morning I dropped N off at daycare, came home and got ready for my class. 2 day class 10a-5pm each day. I make it through about an hour of class and the internet drops. It happens periodically because of the program we use, not because of the internet so I just logged back in, apologized to the class and continued. Over the next 2 hours it happened 4 more times. After lunch it happened 7 more times. We made it through class, and once the class was over I called Comcast. It was about 3:45 (class was scheduled until 5 but the topics don't really take that long) I immediately said, I want to you tell me what's wrong and then I want to talk to a supervisor. This is unacceptable. So they couldn't figure out what was wrong, but they said they could have a technician out between 4 and 6. That wasn't going to work because I had to go pick N up and we all know with my luck, they would be there at 4 then blame me for not being there. She changed it to between 5 and 7 which sucked because that covers the entire time I get N ready for bed and fed etc. but I figured it was the best we could do. The supervisor gave me her name, and her direct phone number to call if there were any other issues and to follow up afterward so the could figure out what they can do for me.
7:15 rolls around and the technician still isn't here. I have a cranky 6 month old on my hands because his schedule is all off. I call the supervisor and get her VM. Leave her a message (she was supposed to be there until 8:30pm) and get N to bed. 7:45. Nothing. I call her again. Get her VM again (so glad she gave me her number) and leave another message. 8:05 the tecnician shows up. He's here for an hour. Shockingly, he tells me that nothing is wrong, it's not happening anymore and he can't help me. The he picks up the modem and decides its the power cord thats wrong and the power is dropping so he gives me a new modem.
As of today, the issue is still happening periodically and I haven't been able to get in touch with said supervisor. FVCK COMCAST.
So work has been totally stressing me out this week, trying to keep clients and bosses happy, deal with internet issues which piss them off and getting pissed of myself.
Yesterday I got no sleep because N was up all night and my loving husband got home at midnight and felt the need to wake me up to let me know he was home. Thanks. He also slept late this morning because he got no sleep last night. Welcome to the club.
Today, I'm dealing with a meeting with my boss. 2 new projects that must be done ASAP. Internet that drops out like crazy so I can't get anything done. I teach from 2-4:30ish then I grab my cell and see a missed call. The daycare called. They only called my cell, not the house, which is unusual. I'm on my way out anyway so I figure I'll just go and talk to her when I get there. So I get to the daycare and I'm looking for the director, the one who called and she's nowhere to be found. So I go to the infant room to get N and to see if they know where she is. I asked if they knew why she called and they said yeah. N had apparently projectile vomited all over the room and had 4 almost explosive diarrhea diapers! WHY WOULD YOU NOT LEAVE A MESSAGE! I mean seriously! No message, didn't call any of the other 3 numbers she has for us. Nothing. So now I have to sign something that says that we are aware of the symptoms and won't bring him back until he has been symptom free for 24 hours. I'm working, A is working so I have to figure out how the hell that's going to work and I can't get through to the pediatrician. I finally get through to the pedi and make an appointment for 7 tonight. I get ahold of A and he said he can take a sick day tomorrow so I don't have to. I start to drive home from daycare and I just start crying.
I have never felt so overwhelmed in my life. With work and N and A, who is always wound tight so at times like this, his stressiness (word?) makes me even worse. I miss my family, I miss my friends. I miss HAVING friends nearby at all. I miss A. He's gone so much and when he's home we're both stressed and exhausted. I just lost it. Of course I talked to A and he asked me to do like 8 things for him which made it worse. Sometimes men just don't get it. So I called my mom. That's right. I called my mom. I love my mom and I miss her so much. I just needed my mommy. She calmed me down. Told me I'm a wonderful mother and brought me back to sanity. I'm still overwhelmed, I'm still exhausted. I'm still worried about N (It's a stomach virus, nothing to do but wait it out and keep him hydrated) but my mom made it all ok just by being there for me, even it was over the phone.
Hopefully this week will get better. N will be home with A tomorrow and maybe Friday while I work (whish means when I'm not teaching, I'll really be taking care of N, not my projects). I know we'll be up at least a couple times tonight so I'll be exhausted but hopefully A will let me sleep a little late on the weekend. All I know right now (as i finish typing this then run upstairs to pass out) is that I hope, with all my heart, that someday I am to N and any future kids, what my mom is to me!
