Seriously. Everytime I get my eyebrows waxed I feel like I look 5-10 lbs skinnier than I did before. I used to fight the eyebrow wax. Ask Shmizz. She once plucked my eyebrows in the Newark airport at like 4 in the morning. I used to be completely anti-wax.
Then a guy said something. Yeah I'm that girl. If a girl says something I think, whatever, but if a guy says it I think...hmmmm...if it will make me hotter...
Obviously that was before marriage and child. It was actually my future husband (now current husband if you're not following) that said it to me and thus began the waxing.
I do not keep up with it as I should. With N, and A traveling when do I have time? I mean I know it doesn't take long but I can't leave N at home alone no matter how long it is and I think it would be a little distracting to bring him with me. I'm not sure they would like that. Even it if is just the Thai ladies down the road.
However I got here, I'll fully admit that now, I love a good eyebrow wax. It really does make me feel more put together. So how did I find the time? Well, that's a whole other story....
Today is Good Friday. My company was open today. My daycare was not. Neither A nor I realized this until a few weeks ago. Neither of us could take the day off either. So we called my MIL. Luckily, Good Friday isn't a big day for catering so she and my FIL managed to secure the whole day off. Then she asked if she could pick N up and bring him back to NJ for the day to hang out with them, instead of being in the house. I said yes. Then sat there as the anxiety started creeping in....
So I love my MIL and FIL. It's not them necessarily. It's just the whole situation. With A traveling and not knowing anyone in the area I am ridiculously attached to my son. I'm am protective and I worry too much about other people watching him. I'm aware of the issue. He doesn't get to spend a ton of time with them and I worry...do they know how to deal with it when he hits or kicks...will he freak out since he doesn't know them so well...will he be ok in NJ ( I mean, regardless of who he's with, it's NJ...do I really want to subject him to that?) ... I knew I needed to let go which is why even if I could have I decided not find an excuse for N not to go to NJ. I need time to myself. N will be blessed to have time with his Grandparents. I need to just know that and let the anxiety go.
So I let it go...and got a pedicure and an eyebrow wax (after work) as an appetizer to my haircut tomorrow (which I hired a babysitter for). Slowly but surely I'm reaching a balance between me and mommy me. It's necessary for my survival and for N's. But so hard. I think it would be a little bit easier if we had people in the area. You can learn to let go in a safe, family environment :-). Whether my theory is true or not here I am. Enjoying some peace on a Friday night.
And the MIL is going to be back here at 8:45 with the kiddo....peace is always short lived :)
**NOTE: I realize this is kind of random but it's totally me. So there.
Friday, April 22, 2011
Friday, April 15, 2011
I know I know...
I swear though I haven't abandoned you. I haven't blogged in 2 weeks and I'm sorry. N has been sick and had to go back on the nebulizer and antibiotics, then of course A got sick as well and he's even worse that N with the whining. Work has been crazy, April is always a crazy month for us and I've got cabin fever and now that it's getting nicer I realized that I have gone weeks at a time without leaving the house other than to take N to day care or once a week to the grocery store (yeah, that's as pathetic as it sounds).
So anyway, I apologize for my absence but I promise I'm not gone. I've begun tweeting a whole lot more for both social and professional reasons (@LeaMacV) which is cool except sometimes I don't feel like I have anything valid to say. I have to say that it has made me delve more actively into the world of non-profit organizations and online training (which is what I do). It's been interesting the amount of stuff I miss and how just being aware of the goings on in the arena of nonprofits has made my customers seem to trust me even more. Like I'm more of a colleague to them than someone who is just preaching to them on how to use the software to advance their organzation (I don't actually work for a nonprofit, I work for a FOR profit software company who makes software for the nonprofits).
So learning all about tweeting (with @BabyShmizz) has been fun and has taken up some of the allotted time in my life for social networking. I don't really know how some of my amazing colleagues do it. They manage to blog on a daily basis (about interesting AND relevant stuff no less) tweet constantly and all sorts of other things as well.
On a personal note I feel like all I do these days is make plans for the future and next weekend is really the beginning of "the season". I'm getting a haircut :-). Due to A's job and N and living in a place where I can't find a good salon, this is much more difficult than one would expect. I have a babysitter coming next weekend to watch Nathan while I got get my haircut 45 minutes away from here where we lived before we moved here so I can go back to my old stylist. She's awesome but I wouldn't normally drive 45 minutes to get to her. However, my 30th birthday bash is coming up and on top of the weight watchers (lost 10 lbs, btw) I want to have a decent haircut as well. I know it's alot to ask but I'm willing to pay a babysitter for it. Then from next weekend on it gets crazy!
April - Easter
May - my birthday celebration, mother's day, cousin's wedding in Oregon with my mom and sisters (girls long weekend in Portand OR, WOOT!)
June - weekend at the lake with Mom and Dad and sister A (hopefully), visiting friends (Ahem, Boston friends, A is grounded for some of June and July, send us avail weekend, we're visiting!!) Shizz 30th birthday
July - week at the lake, wedding of my godbrother, Dad's birthday and BIL birthday,
August - weekend at lake...and I'm sure more to come
On top of all that I start my Business Stats class on May 2.... awesome.
So life is crazy but I am now renewing my vow. I will do something blogworthy 2 times per week and be sure to blog and update you all on it. I swear.
So anyway, I apologize for my absence but I promise I'm not gone. I've begun tweeting a whole lot more for both social and professional reasons (@LeaMacV) which is cool except sometimes I don't feel like I have anything valid to say. I have to say that it has made me delve more actively into the world of non-profit organizations and online training (which is what I do). It's been interesting the amount of stuff I miss and how just being aware of the goings on in the arena of nonprofits has made my customers seem to trust me even more. Like I'm more of a colleague to them than someone who is just preaching to them on how to use the software to advance their organzation (I don't actually work for a nonprofit, I work for a FOR profit software company who makes software for the nonprofits).
So learning all about tweeting (with @BabyShmizz) has been fun and has taken up some of the allotted time in my life for social networking. I don't really know how some of my amazing colleagues do it. They manage to blog on a daily basis (about interesting AND relevant stuff no less) tweet constantly and all sorts of other things as well.
On a personal note I feel like all I do these days is make plans for the future and next weekend is really the beginning of "the season". I'm getting a haircut :-). Due to A's job and N and living in a place where I can't find a good salon, this is much more difficult than one would expect. I have a babysitter coming next weekend to watch Nathan while I got get my haircut 45 minutes away from here where we lived before we moved here so I can go back to my old stylist. She's awesome but I wouldn't normally drive 45 minutes to get to her. However, my 30th birthday bash is coming up and on top of the weight watchers (lost 10 lbs, btw) I want to have a decent haircut as well. I know it's alot to ask but I'm willing to pay a babysitter for it. Then from next weekend on it gets crazy!
April - Easter
May - my birthday celebration, mother's day, cousin's wedding in Oregon with my mom and sisters (girls long weekend in Portand OR, WOOT!)
June - weekend at the lake with Mom and Dad and sister A (hopefully), visiting friends (Ahem, Boston friends, A is grounded for some of June and July, send us avail weekend, we're visiting!!) Shizz 30th birthday
July - week at the lake, wedding of my godbrother, Dad's birthday and BIL birthday,
August - weekend at lake...and I'm sure more to come
On top of all that I start my Business Stats class on May 2.... awesome.
So life is crazy but I am now renewing my vow. I will do something blogworthy 2 times per week and be sure to blog and update you all on it. I swear.