Spring cleaning...

So my closets ( A and I share 2 in the master bedroom) have been a mess for a while now.  At one point I started going through all my clothes and getting the winter ones put away and the summer ones out.  Notice I said started...I never got around to finishing the job, until today.  It's been driving A nuts so I know that when he gets home he will be a very happy camper.

Never has spring cleaning been so hard for me.  So many of my summer clothes are from 2 years ago and are totally not something I can or will wear anymore.  I have a HUGE pile of clothes and shoes to donate to Goodwill.  HUGE.  Now don't hate me for what I'm about to say.  One of the reasons I have so many clothes to get rid of is because I'm 15 lbs lighter than I was before I got pregnant.  I had just lost 25 lbs before I got pregnant too, so I haven't been this size since college.  I know that some of you will say, wah wah wah, why is she whining about being skinny.  Well, it's not so much the being skinny but the size change thing.  Just like if I had gained weight, I now have to go through all my clothes figure out what fits (which is not much since the last time I was this size it was 2003) what I should give to Goodwill, what should just be trashed, etc.  I refuse to keep anything in the bigger sizes, because I feel like that would give me an "ok" to gain the weight back.  I'm am so afraid that once I stop nursing I will gain it all back, so I got rid of all of them, so I don't have them available.  I have some things that I fit into, that I start laughing when I put on because they are SO out of date.  When I was gaining weight all these years I did hold on to the smaller stuff (we all have our "skinny clothes" in the closet, right?) in the hopes that I would be able to fit iback in them one day.  Well, now I do and I wouldn't be caught dead in these things.  I got rid of the outfit that I wore on my first date with A today...A long khaki cargo skirt and a red, black and khaki floral sleeveless top, that was cropped.  Almost a belly top but not quite.  If I remember correctly I wore some chunky black sandals with it as well.  Hot right?  Yeah, I got rid of it.  It fits again but really?  Like I'm going to wear that ever again?  Not so much.

So anyway, because of all this I have a pile of clothes ranging from size 6 to size 12 purchased anywhere from 2002-2008 (since I was preggers all of 2009).  Along with some pretty bad shoes and old purses for Goodwill.  Now I have to go through it all and figure out what is there, so I can document it all for taxes.  I'm going to guess that at retail prices I have at LEAST $2000 worth of clothes, but probably more. It's really depressing, in a way, to look at my closet now.  There is NOTHING in there. 

Now I just have to convince A that we can afford for me to go do some major shopping....I'm pretty sure I have a snowballs chance in hell of that happening but we'll see...